You would think I would be used to loosing best friends right now, considering all the ones I have lost in the last 4 years but this latest one, was something I would have never expected. 

I don’t really know when everything change, I just know that one day everything was different and no one bothered to let me know what had changed. At first, I guess we both tried to ignore it and still act like things were the way that they used to be… but we both knew what was happening. There were awkward moments, which we never use to have, and silence. The silence was the worst.

Even when we first met, there was no silences when we talked to each other. You can yell at me, cuss me out, and spread rumors about me and it still wouldn’t have affected me like the silence and ignorance does. When you look at me and don’t even bother to say hi or when you are sitting right next to and not one word is spoken, that is what can cause me the most pain. And you have to know this, you have to know that it would kill me to be ignored and not spoken to.  

I told myself I would not be brought down by people in my high school anymore because I would never have t see them again after Sunday, but for some reason I can’t let this go. It keeps me up at night and brings to the verge of tears. I just can’t believe I am loosing another friend. 

Life Sucks